You don't really care by Astral-Enigma, literature
Literature
You don't really care
I hear you in the other room.
Laughing.
Joking.
Having fun.
You forgot about me sat out here.
You forgot you were going to talk to me.
You forgot to care.
You don't really care that I'm upset.
You don't really care that I'm down.
You don't really care that I'm bleeding.
I thought you cared...
"i nearly fucked a guy"
"there"
"said it"
blank.
shaking.
scared.
i thought we had something
i was scared last time
that distance would hurt me
you said not to worry
that there wasn't anyone else
trust is such an underrated quality these days
i trusted you.
i didn't try and find anyone else
because i believed you
crushed.
forgotten.
"bye"
I talk to her and my soul
spills.
She finds me, alone.
Purposely retreated from the world.
Surrounded by dreams and illusions, trying to forget that,
Out there is fear
Out there is pain
Out there is uncertainty and ill reactions
Out there I cannot be me.
She helps me forget,
I am happy but,
Leonard Cohen is on the stereo.
A strange juxtaposition, that in a fitting way,
Illustrates my life.
Each word you speak to me falls,
Like a dew drenched rose petal.
Illuminating in my soul,
A glimmer of hope.
Each time I see you,
I see perfection.
And this unexplainable emotion,
Returns once again.
Each time you hug me,
Feels like a caress.
Although fleeting,
I feel it forever.
Each time I think of you,
I think of how much I love you.
Each time I dream of you,
I think of what could be.
Each second that I am with you is heaven.
And I wish that it was eternal,
Endless and unchanging.
Restless and wild as the tides,
But calm and peaceful like a lazy summer aftermoon.
Light and bubbly as a carefree laugh,
But dark and pass
There's no escape this time
The blood red lines form a web
across my wrist again
The crushing blow was coming, I knew
Before we'd even talked
I'd seen the way you smiled at him,
Seen it and blanked it
Tried to pretend that
It wasn't real
Fantasy only goes so far
And now
The cold, hard agony
Returns
It's only a matter of time
Weeks, days, hours...
Who knows?
I'll always remember the times I spent with you
The happiest days of my life
I smiled then and it was real
I tried, I really did
I'll smile again, I'll go happy, don't worry about that...
There's no escape this time
The blood red lines form a web
across my wrist again
The crushing blow was coming, I knew
Before we'd even talked
I'd seen the way you smiled at him,
Seen it and blanked it
Tried to pretend that
It wasn't real
Fantasy only goes so far
And now
The cold, hard agony
Returns
It's only a matter of time
Weeks, days, hours...
Who knows?
I'll always remember the times I spent with you
The happiest days of my life
I smiled then and it was real
I tried, I really did
I'll smile again, I'll go happy, don't worry about that...
Each word you speak to me falls,
Like a dew drenched rose petal.
Illuminating in my soul,
A glimmer of hope.
Each time I see you,
I see perfection.
And this unexplainable emotion,
Returns once again.
Each time you hug me,
Feels like a caress.
Although fleeting,
I feel it forever.
Each time I think of you,
I think of how much I love you.
Each time I dream of you,
I think of what could be.
Each second that I am with you is heaven.
And I wish that it was eternal,
Endless and unchanging.
Restless and wild as the tides,
But calm and peaceful like a lazy summer aftermoon.
Light and bubbly as a carefree laugh,
But dark and pass
I talk to her and my soul
spills.
She finds me, alone.
Purposely retreated from the world.
Surrounded by dreams and illusions, trying to forget that,
Out there is fear
Out there is pain
Out there is uncertainty and ill reactions
Out there I cannot be me.
She helps me forget,
I am happy but,
Leonard Cohen is on the stereo.
A strange juxtaposition, that in a fitting way,
Illustrates my life.
"i nearly fucked a guy"
"there"
"said it"
blank.
shaking.
scared.
i thought we had something
i was scared last time
that distance would hurt me
you said not to worry
that there wasn't anyone else
trust is such an underrated quality these days
i trusted you.
i didn't try and find anyone else
because i believed you
crushed.
forgotten.
"bye"
You don't really care by Astral-Enigma, literature
Literature
You don't really care
I hear you in the other room.
Laughing.
Joking.
Having fun.
You forgot about me sat out here.
You forgot you were going to talk to me.
You forgot to care.
You don't really care that I'm upset.
You don't really care that I'm down.
You don't really care that I'm bleeding.
I thought you cared...
Moon hovering
in a still sunlit sky
clouds like scrawled thoughts
on a page
Unintelligible
forgotten
under this sky i sit
waves crashing at my feet
wind blowing in my face
this is real
this is perfect
i am free
people nearby
don't disturb
or distract
the waves are music
in its simplest form
the wind accompanies
a harmony of wind and water
as the light slowly fades
so does the stress from my day
nothing's wrong
nothing's urgent
i feel You near me
we are free
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